Speechless

Almost two years ago, I started this blog for basically 3 reasons:
1) To share things that God is teaching me on this journey of life
2) To document my kiddos lives so when I blink my eyes and they are grown, I can remember the innocence, chaos, cuteness and craziness of this time
3)To force myself to look at life from a positive perspective, even if it is just for the amount of time it takes me to write my posts :)
Now, since having Gwyn of course I have a whole lot less "extra" time on my hands, but I am trying to keep up mainly due to reason #2! Anyways, let me get to the point. It's time for a moment of truth. I have been having a hard time writing real posts lately because honestly I'm struggling with #3 right now! I truly do believe hormones are involved here BUT there is definitely more to it than that! I am a person that wants truth to be told and justice to be given and right now our world is just plain depressing to me. I started this post before the massacre of 20 innocent children in CT but felt like I had been slapped in the face when I heard the news. How do we live in a country where this happens?? I have a kindergartner! If I lived in CT it could have been my little boy just as easily as it was theirs. We have to constantly look over our shoulders whether it's in the mall, a movie theater, schools. Some days it just seems like wading through knee deep mud and muck to think about raising kids in this world, fighting for our marriages, maintaining friendships, working along side people who are completely lost eternally speaking and so many other things as well. I will never lose hope in my God, but I do wish sometimes that I didn't have to be here to live in these terrible times. Oh how I long for Heaven on days like these. I know that Satan is prowling around looking to devour each and every one of us, especially the "Christians" who are not standing firmly on the Rock of Jesus Christ. When he senses that bit of doubt or disappointment he pounces on them and tries to pull them further and further away from eternal salvation. We must pull together, pray for each other and keep looking to the the Lord in times like these so that Satan will flee. (James 4:7 "Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.")

I have decided to catch my blog up until the new year and then I am going to take a little break for a while and really only use it for reason #1, which in my opinion is the best reason to blog anyway.
I am not going to post it to Facebook anymore but you are welcome to subscribe via email or follow me through the RSS feed. I know we will all be praying for all those lives touched by this terrible tragedy today and I can only find comfort in knowing that I have an eternal home where events like today will NEVER EVER happen and the tears will all be wiped away.